Echoes of Absence (S1.EP9)

Why do we always hurt the one, whom we love the most?  Because they cared ❤️ ....

It was really a hell of a day, it doesn't go as expected. A few things went wrong at work and it was a very exhausting and tiresome day. I was so frustrated and tired that I didn't even bother to check my phone. And I can't blame my phone because it's me who doesn't care to check. I'm such a terrible person. So with this careless attitude, I left for my room. After reaching there, I took a deep breath and stand in front of my door, thinking about the work which I could have done better earlier in the day. I take out my key to open the door but it was already unlocked. I got a bit of suspension but to be honest, I'm a little irresponsible so I might have left it unlocked. Well! That's what I thought and went inside. But as soon as I close the door, I find out how I messed up things horribly. 

(I don't know about the diamond but you are my Kohinoor)

"You are supposed to pick me up at 6:00 pm."

My mind gets blank after hearing this sentence and I didn't even dare to turn around. My legs just froze there. And I can't even figure out what to say because I know what I have done tonight, and it isn't forgivable.

"I'm glad you returned." 

I slowly turned around and look down towards her feet because I had no courage to look into her eyes.

"I'm about to leave in a few minutes if you wouldn't have shown yourself by now."

I can feel the steadiness and emptiness in her stammering voice. She must have been crying or I must have been made her cry again. Well! In either case, I failed again. 

"Where have you been?"

"Busy I guess."

"Have you checked your phone?"

"Oh! How can I forget? You are acquainted with my missed call. Right! Oh, sorry! Missed calls."

"Right?"

I couldn't utter a single word. I feel so unable to say something that my words break inside my vocal cords. I just stand there silently. 

 

She takes a pause, probably wiping her tears. I feel so low like drowning in the guilt that I made her cry again. Her each falling tears on the floor are felt like fireballs falling over my chest penetrating my heart.

"You knew, I'm leaving tonight. I have a flight at 2:30 am. And I can't cancel this time."

Another drop touches the floor and I'm still incapable of looking up. 

"I've told you to be in time and you agreed on that."

"And I don't know, what was I thinking? I must be so dum that I believed in you."

Her voice stammers more as if they are falling apart and so was our hearts. I was physically tired but she was emotionally tired of me. I felt broken but she was shattered. And I made her this.

"It's 11:00 pm now."

"I should leave."

What should I say? After what I did to her. I couldn't even look at myself in the mirror. I feel disgraceful and selfish. I took her for granted, how can I dare to take her for granted? Who takes "Kohinoor" for granted? It isn't just any diamond, it's "The Kohinoor" which has made the world go mad. Every crown is worthless without it. And I just took her for granted, I can't believe myself.

"So you're gonna stand there like a frozen pole."

"Good!"

I looked up, her eyes were red, and I still see the dolphins in the ocean. I feel so damaged like someone just flamed my soul. My entire world just went upside down. Did somebody rip my heart off? Am I alive? 

"I got to go."

"Bye"

I wanted to stop her. I wanted her to curse me, slap me, scold me, hit me. But not to leave me. My heart is screaming "not to let her go", but I felt so helpless and weak that I did nothing to stop her. I just stand there like a dead person.

She picks up her handbag and said,

"And one thing ...."

"Nevermind, forget it."

"Oh! Sorry again!"

"You're very good at forgetting."

My heart is screaming at its peak as if it's gonna explode into pieces and it's saying repeatedly, "stop her, stop her, stop her, stop her, stop her ....".

She pulled the door handle and is about to leave, and I'm right there. I can stop her and apologize but I just stand there and gonna watch her leave. And I don't know, out of somewhere, how I gathered all my strength and said, "Dhadak ...."

To be continued ....