Echoes of Absence (S1.EP5)

Oscillating heartbeat, restlessness eyes, and this lunatic suspicious heart all are searching for redemption in the apocalypse. And this heart is behaving as one of the highly unstable elements like uranium 235, doing its nuclear fission reaction to bring its own Apocalypse. That disquietness is crawling all over the body, hypothesizing the blissful sight of salvation by walking over the edge of a sharp knife. 

This chaotic dilemma stopped when my eyes found it's own sparkle the moment, my heart beacons its beat. And with her each approaching footstep, my heart is skipping its beat correspondingly. My legs freeze there, my eyeballs locked at her. She is looking stunningly beautiful in that black dress, I have never seen her like that before and that's enough to faint me out. But ....

Before I could think or say anything, a pair of very warm and fluffy arms squeezed my cold body. My brain collapses, my heart beats fast and I'm completely blackout for a few seconds. It takes a few seconds more to hold my nerves, and before that my arms auto reflect and enclose her warm body tightly against mine. As if a breeze from heaven wrapped up and resided around me. It's like a blessing got approved, my soul strays and met in the infinite light. My lifeless body lit with cherishing joys as if it finds peace. The whole universe paused there at that very moment. The entire space shrinks in between those two arms, the decibel decreases to zero. My soul is scented by the fragrance of her penetrating the jacket and my skin. And this becomes the most blissful moment of my life.

(Missed Your Blessing)

After these beautiful two minutes of hug, which is the most incredibly amazing incident ever happened in my life and I don't want it to be ended. Why does all the good stuff end very soon? Then we both gaze at each other and smiled.

"You are missing from me." We said at the same time.

Since when you started to be filmy. (I laughed)

"Shut up. I'm very hungry, let's go." She crossed my arms in hers and we started walking.

At the restaurant, 

Slow down, it's not going anywhere. Nobody gonna take it from you.

I'm very hungry.

Well, I can see that. You are such a disgusting eater and nobody ever gonna take a piece of your food.

But you just ate that.

(I smiled.)

Stay away from my food. (Raised her eyebrows)

Ok. Eat, I'm going to the washroom.

I was about to push the washroom door, Dhadak called me loudly "Jaan ....". And I responded with " Yes! Dhadak". Everybody stared at my face, including that old grandpa and that fatherly mustached man. It becomes a bit uncomfortable situation in that loving environment of the restaurant. Then Dhadak said "Love ....", because I think she also finds it awkward. But I can see the devils inside that man's eyes, as his eyes are speaking "You are dead. boy!". "She is not your girl. Uncle! And I'm not a terrorist.", I said to myself. Then I controlled my giggle and emotion with a dead expression and gradually walk back to Dhadak. She said, "Give me your phone then go". I put my phone on the table then leave. 

When I came back, I see Dhadak is typing something on my phone.

What are you doing with my phone? And how did you unlock it?

Nothing, and it was a very weak password as expected. (Give my phone back with a smile)

Ok! In that case, give me your hand. 

Why?

Just give it to me.

She was sitting opposite side of mine, so she switches and seated herself side to me. Then she gives her hand in mine. I hold her hand, it is very soft as cotton candy, my heart melts. Then I unlock my phone with the password "2412" (24th December - Dhadak's Birthday) then I open my phone settings and added her right hand's index finger's fingerprint as a password. She gazes into my eyes smiling and holds my hand tighter and after two minutes of pause she said, "are you willing to stay here?". I just nod my head downwards. "Shut up, idiot." she said this with a lovingly beautiful expression on her pretty face.

(Keep My Heart Safe)

8:50 pm, outside the restaurant.

Walking on the street warming up each other's hands.

Oye, I have something to give you. 

I just forgot that completely, I thought it to give you earlier at the airport but missed that portion. I hope it's still fine and put my hand in the inner pocket of my jacket and pull out a red rose. And it isn't looking the same while I bought it but still, it doesn't that dried.

Sorry, it was beautiful and fresh. (Embraced)

No, it's totally fine. It looks perfect. 

No, it was. (said with a bit sad face)

I told you na .... It's fine. Now give it to me properly. 

So, I went on my knees on the street and look into her eyes and said, "Dhadak, I am willing to lose all my blessings and happiness, just only to see you happy. Even after losing all my blessings and happiness which is written in my fate, if I ever get only one blessing then I will sacrifice that too into your fate. You are the happiness of my soul, you are the blessing to this little heart of mine. And I can't live without that. Every cell of my body loves you, every nucleus of an atom of my cell needs you. You are the electrons in my valence shell to give me a stable configuration. And I love you .... And I always will. Please, accept this rose as a symbol of my love."

Tears rolled down from her oceanly dark eyes, as a wave touches the shore. She nods her head downwards and receives my heart. She jumps into my arms and melts down there. 

Peace ❤️ .... (My soul uttered)

To be continued ....