The noise of the traffic, the chaos of the people, the annoying horns of vehicles gradually increase to unbearable. Then it turns into a long beep sound that blocks them out and that too vanishes into the void making me hear absolutely nothing, a complete silence.
And the next thing I remember is that I found myself standing at the edge of that bridge. Yeah! That bridge(Neil's bridge). Just one more step then it's all over. I look back towards the city, it's glowing under the sparkling stars which makes my sights hazy. Then I look down the bridge, the waves are flickering in that black water making it looks deeper and attractive as if it's beckoning me to coalesce within. Don't worry, I'm not gonna jump. I lose but am not done yet.
But it's just that, yesterday I was so happy and my life was so beautiful and amazing that I felt like flying and now, I feel like dying. How fast these dice rolled and takes away everything from me. It's not that I didn't have a life before without her. But it's kind of feels like I have nothing left in me. Without her, I was just living. But with her, I felt alive. And now that she is gone, my life just turned upside down in just a fraction of a second. She knew I can't live without her, she knew I need her more she needs me, she knew I .... But still, she left because she knew the pain of love. So she quits on me.
And I don't want to cry, but my heart and eyes aren't cooperating. The soundless screams, the choking heartbeat, the breaking breathe are witnessing my helplessness. And the suffering within is consuming my heart and leaving a scar behind in the name of love.
"Aren't the water will be cold? Try to jump from that side, it looks deeper." Typical Zero's sarcasm.
"Thanks, for the tip."
"Anytime."
"I can't say that I'm happy to see you, but I guess I'll never get rid of you."
"Ouch!!"
"My life sucks."
"Don't worry, pal. We're soulmates."
"Yeah, that's why it sucks."
"Alright, go ahead and jump. And in case you survived by chance. Then you might spend the rest of your life in hospital. So make sure that you will die."
"Dead is better than getting you back." I'm being rude.
"Even I don't want to see you, at least not like this. I'm here because you're fading again. Listen, Jaan. Life is a gift. Don't waste it. If you fade away then there will be no difference between you and me. You are the purest version of us, just hang in there the storm will pass soon."
"Just leave me alone" I shouted.
"Okay. Okay "
"Go!!!!"
"I can't cause you don't want it."
"Just go away otherwise I'll hit you."
"You can't do that either cause I don't have a physical body." He said and take a pause. And again he said, "It's about dawn, go get your eyes some rest." Then he fades away.
I looked around and see, a very thin layer of fog is covered around the bridge. The birds are started chirping, the city lights are fainting, and the stars are fading away. And I found myself alone in that bridge.
To be continued ....
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